Intro - Who Am I?

8:15 pm, Wednesday, 9/9/2009, 1 Imix/Alligator, Crocodile (Composition info, including Mayan calendar day)

By way of a bit of introduction, I’m a brand new blogger who has been journaling for over 30 years, now.  The journaling has radically morphed over that time, and it now provides some pretty serious blessings.  Thus, when the idea came, recently, to begin blogging it, I was open to that.  Heck, if it helps me so much, maybe it could bless others, as well.  If nothing else, it will demonstrate some of the powerful potentials in journaling; and yes, even for men.

Along with that, you will find some fairly basic computer tech tips thrown in, here and there.  Computers make our lives both more complex and easier.  It’s fun to share tips and tricks gained over time, both as a database technical analyst (back when I worked), and also an ordinary PC user (sorry, not Macs).  So, from free programs, to short cuts, to great safe sites and such...will offer some favorite goodies along the way. (First TECH TIP in the footnote at the end...unless you count the great web address recommended before that :-)

Okay, there’s a lot of ‘stuff’ in my Profile that can really ground you in the basics of who I am.  What I’ll add, here, is something about where I’m coming from.

As a mystic, I don’t care to use “I” or “me” or those words, much.  It’s a pretty basic matter of identity.  What do you identify with?  Well, the mystic identifies with God, with Spirit, and with the Higher Self, or Presence, as Eckhart Tolle calls it.  Thus, when speaking about the body, or the mind, or the like, that is not my “I;”  Do you see?  I am not that.

Besides “I am” is also a name of God/Source/Allah/The Is-ness/Prime Creator...  “I Am That I Am” is the only such name offered in the Old Testament.  Thus, to say “I am” is to literally invoke the name of God, to invoke Source.  One could give some thought to the words that follow in the sentence...to be sure one really wants to invoke God into that.  See how complicated the seemingly little, basic things can get, from the mystic perspective?

Though this sharing is not much fun, cuz I don’t like to speak so much about the self, it will to help lay some basic groundwork.  Why?  Because, being both a mystic and a bit of a nut, and very, very independent...well, it will help make sense of the journals.  Once you’ve read them for a while, you’ll get it.  Meanwhile, I hope this helps break the ice.  Yeah, ice...and where is that, in the South in September?  Oh well, figure of speech.

Oh, and this body is merely the (relatively) long-term suit I wear, while incarnate, here, on earth...or Gaia...or in 3D; you know, same thing.  And the mind...well, that is what most people identify with, but not the self-respecting mystic.  Why not?  Because it is not the pathway to Source, to Spirit; it simply will not get you there.  Not.

If you peeked at the Profile page, you will see that this mind is well exercised, well educated.  Big deal.  It took all that, I guess, to learn that was not the way to go.  Not that there’s anything wrong with education, over all.  Well, there’s plenty wrong with it, but not to get into that just now.

It’s just a matter of where you’re going.  For going out into the world to earn one’s living, education is fine.  For going Home to God - by which I mean to return to union with Source/God in consciousness, not to literally go anywhere - the mind is the wrong tool.

Okay, yes, it’s useful.  Mine is very bright.  But the mental mind just isn’t wired up right, see...it’s a 3D thing, trying to go to a 4D, 5D, 6D (and beyond) reality.  (Higher mind is another matter.)  Wrong tool, that’s all.  Useful and necessary, here in 3D, though, just in its place.  Right tool for the right job, that’s what's needed.

Whew!  It’s the little stuff that takes the longest, sometimes. Mind... Okay, more about me.  I time travel, some.  Not physically, but in consciousness.  In learning that all time is one, is now, is simultaneous...well, it’s not too great of a leap, from there, to begin to experience something of one’s other incarnations.  Why not, if they’re all happening “now?”  Quantum physics helps a lot to make sense of this.

Okay, sometimes I tune in to beings of light - mostly St. Germain - and they speak through me.  I don’t care for the word ‘channel.’  I like to call myself a scribe.  Just a humble scribe.  Nothing fancy.  So, you’ll see that come out in the journals, sometimes.  It comes in through the keyboard, the written word.

What else?  Lord, there are probably a bazillion things, but they’re not coming to mind.  Okay, I don’t care for religion at all; none of them.  This is pretty recent, as I spent my whole life being pretty devout.  Started out Catholic, wound-up kinda New Age, but threw the whole lot of it over.  I settle for simple spirituality, now.

Religion is fine (as long as it’s not being used to drum up hatred or intolerance for others), and I champion and support everyone’s right to follow whatever path they like.  I just don’t feel the need to do that, anymore.  I’ll share more of the why behind that, as we go forward.  It is too much to get into, here...and not my favorite topic, anyway.  Spirituality, yes; that will be my theme, pretty much.

One important thing, and that’s that the mystic’s definition of God/Spirit/Source can get a little strange.  None of this old guy in the sky stuff, of course.  Not many still hang on to that.  It’s not too easy to explain, though.  That will take some time.  I hope you'll hang in there with me.

Sri Nisargadatta is a good teacher on this subject.  His book, I AM THAT,* is excellent and awesome, and mandatory reading for all budding (or otherwise) mystics.  He will really help take you there.  He will shock you, more than once, of course, by the way he looks at things, but that is what life is all about, now isn’t it?  Perspective is the main name of the game down here, it seems to me.

Okay, last point:  the top line will most always start, not just with the Gregorian version of the date this was first written, but also the Mayan one.  That’s what that is.  If you want to look it up, you can go to MayanMajix.com, a great site.  Otherwise, maybe just ignore it.  For those who follow the Mayan calendar, it becomes pretty special...and way different than any Western concept of a calendar.

Basically, the Maya followed the ray (or energy or light) that was issuing forth from the heart of creation each day.  Don’t know how they knew what it is/was, but they did.  It is SO not related to circling planets and suns, or anything 3D like that.

The purpose is to help one align oneself with the day’s energy, to tune in, thus both understanding somewhat of the ‘purpose’ or at least the ‘flavor’ of the day, and to help choose what best to do or not do, to go along with the energy. Okay, so much for Mayan calendar 101.  Ian Lungold has some great free videos on the Mayan Majix site, for those with an interest.

So, feel free to comment.  A favorite motto is “It is just as harmful to take offense as it is to give offense.”  So, unless you really make an effort to be nasty, just trust that I won’t be offended.  Of course, ‘constructive’ and ‘useful’ and ‘honest’ are nice grounds for comments.  Thanks for reading! (and I promise not to ever say that again ;-)

* Almost First TECH TIP:  There is a great site called Scribd.com where one can go to get the text of many books, papers, and such.  Like YouTube, only text.  You should be able to find a copy of I AM THAT, there.  Just use the search box.  Most things are also downloadable, usually as .pdf files.  Will share a great (free), slim, trim, fast-loading PDF reader, later.

The Insides that Produced These Outsides — or — A Precious Day

10:31 am, Tuesday, 9/8/2009, 13 Ahau/Light, Sun (Composition info, including Mayan calendar day)

Okay, it appears that journaling may be necessary. While going through my regular morning devotions, which include some meditations, and contemplating my “heart’s deepest desires,” nothing would come into clear focus. Even going through a (personal) affirmations document, seeking clarity that way, was a No Go.

So...what I find is that, in journaling, so often that which simply won’t come out, otherwise, comes through clearly, even beautifully, in the journal; thus enabling one to ‘objectify’ the inner, or produce the inner on the outer. Quite handy, that. A very nifty trait for journaling...at least for me.

Would hope it works just as well for others, but that depends on them, of course. Where once this would not have not been so clear, I can see it, now. What man has done, man can do. None of us is any more special than the others, than another. The same potential exists for one and all. (Not to even mention that we are all one, of course ;-)

This is the 'equality' spoken of in the founding of the USA, imo. These bodies are not born equal, some having blessings and others detriments; the station in life and accouterments are not equal for each one.

Yet, at the root of it, and even in the DNA, which is highly malleable, and subject to change via strong intent and emotion, as illustrated and taught so aptly by both Gregg Braden and Bruce Lipton, we do find our fundamental equality. The Field is equally accessible, everywhere, every when. Thus, does wo/man have “equal opportunity."

So many people get all tangled up in that, thinking it means something else, and/or thinking to enforce their particular concepts of an external equality upon society. Like the houses built on sand, however, such creations cannot stand, for they have no firm foundation, no underlying reality.

Thus, when I say that what journaling does for me is available to others, but depends upon their application and earnest effort, it is clear to me that it stands as potential, freely available. And I am so grateful for this clear seeing, which has come to me rather late in life.

Though it is doubtful this one could stand and defend such clarity against fuzzy logic and thinking, against those who do not see it due to the set of beliefs they hold (that so color their vision)... or against those simply brainier than me... :D

Well, so be it. No one said clarity could be passed on, like a shot in the arm, any more than education or wisdom can be so transferred. Each one must walk his own walk. What we can clearly or easily share is rather limited.

These limitations are not built in, are not there in the ability, or in the information, itself. No, for in reality there is nothing ‘out there;’ all is within. Perhaps the ‘outside’ exists purely to show us the within, to show us what we harbor, inside, but do not readily see, or witness, until it is externalized for us.

In a way, this is somewhat like what I have said about journaling. That which is not so easily accessible, when it remains within, is much more easily seen and thus sometimes even understood, when it is objectified, when it is externalized, via the journal. Hmmm. Did not plan that association, but it came out rather neatly. Cool!

It is a very very special day, by the Mayan calendar, being 13 Ahau/Light, Sun. This combines the ultimate, or last number, the 13, representing ascension energies, with the sign of the Lord, or the Sun. The first line explicating Ahau is, “Day of the ancestors and connection to their guidance.”* Well, read ‘ancestors’ as beings of Light, those who have gone before and gone on, and that helps.

Anyway, it is a day of great potential, as this energy radiates from the heart of Cosmos. I reach out to bathe and bask in it in every way possible, having already even taken a short sun ‘bath,’ standing in and absorbing its full radiance on this bright and beautiful morning. (The sun’s energies are more special, more cosmic, than most of us realize. Even in quantum physics has light been equated with information; that’s a wow.)

It will be great when I am doing this as a blog, so that others, too, can read or hear timely info like this, and take advantage of it. Hmmm. Something like 13 Ahau does not come along very often, though my mastery of the Mayan calendar is not such that you will find me putting numbers to its frequency. (MayanMajix.com is the best site imho, for such information, and so much more, being the most scientifically based site I have found for study of the Mayan calendar. It offers a number of video presentations.)

In doing some preliminary research to learn about blogging I came across CodingHorrors.com (site and) article on the Web. It was quite informative, including its long collection of comments. Coming from a spiritual perspective, however, and seeing even the use of words, themselves rather differently, my take on and reason for blogging is somewhat different.

Thanks to the many great commenters, though. They make me feel right at home in being different. Personally, I don’t feel there is anything much more important than just being yourself. Setting out to please people is a sure road to many varieties of horror.

Okay, just for fun, I am going to see about putting this out there as an introductory post on a google blog; they say one can set those up in no time.  So, then, this is both a hello, and a good-bye...until next time.

* From the "Mayan Calendar and Conversion Codex; Galactic Astrology," bought from MayanMajix.com